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Paul1990rappel believe it or not, back in 1990 i was a young, relatively thin and tan summer counselor at singing hills, the elementary-school-aged summer camp at laity lodge youth camp (LLYC) — an amazing 1900-acre encampment nestled in a canyon along the frio river. that's me in the white hat.

there i taught 6 and 7 year olds how to properly use a carabiner, how to tie abseiling harnesses from scratch, how yell to their belay and rappel off cliffs; i prayed with homesick kids, played guitar in nightly "round-up" worship services, got in shaving cream fights, played a lot of dodge ball and capture-the-flag, snuck the kids out to secret midnight popsicle parties that were really over about 9:45pm, worked on art projects with them, and painfully worked through the most immature, insanely jealous stage of my fledgling relationship with a young, beautiful girls counselor named amy, but that's another conversation. the memories go deep there. and in short, i grew to love the place.

now its almost two decades later and i still have this affinity with that land, with the water and the hills and the people i've met.

this weekend we made one of at least three yearly pilgrimages back to leakey, texas, back to LLYC, and specifically, back to the camp's annual work weekend.

it's a blast, despite that "work" word. a lot of alumni families, current staff, work crew and random folks who have been associated with the youth camps for the last 40 years bring multiple generations of their own families there to pool their energy for a weekend and come together to put the finishing touches on the camp just prior to opening day. we sweat, we work hard, and in exchange, we get fed like kings (e.g.: saturday evening was beef tenderloin), we get to stay in the same cabins as the campers, and we worship there along the banks of the frio, singing many of the same old-school worship songs we did 18 years ago, replete with hand motions and silly inside-joke asides. whether you're back east, in the deep south, or up in the texas hill country, any camp that's survived 40 years builds up a lot of traditions. we sleep, we laugh. we talk.

Paulamy1990llyc_2 this year's work weekend, i was on the grounds crew. weeding flower beds and later raking acorns out of a volleyball sand pit. harder than it sounds. in prior years i've hauled heavy equipment out of their winter storage barns, climbed precarious ladders to clean cobwebs off of huge wagon-wheel chandeliers in the ranch-house, hauled speaker mains and monitors into place in their pavilion, worked with six or seven men to drag unbelievably heavy pontoon docks into the water for the swimmers ... that kind of thing.

we go home and then, two months later, we'll take our kids to be campers there. this year, three out of our four kids will be old enough to attend. we can only afford the one-week session, but the kids love it nonetheless. amy and i have this years-old tradition with the kids. on the last stretch of the highway, just before arriving at camp, we pass a road sign for the haby ranch.

"Hey, Mama…," I call in a really over-the-top vaudeville voice.

"Yes, Daddy?" she sweetly comes in on cue, knowing what's next.

"Say, that's the sign for the Haby Ranch … do you know who used to live at that ranch?"

and then as an answer — to the younger kids' delight and to the older kids' chagrin — the whole mini van launches into an overly loud version of Bill Grogan's Goat, a call-and-response kids' song we used to sing for our campers back at singing hills:

Bill Grogan's Goat (repeat),
Was feelin' fine (repeat),
Ate three red shirts (repeat),
Right off the line (repeat).

Bill grabbed a stick (repeat),
Gave him a whack (repeat),
And tied him to (repeat),
The railroad track (repeat).

The whistle blew! (repeat),
The train grew nigh (repeat),
Bill Grogan's Goat (repeat),
Was doomed to die (repeat).

He heaved a sigh (repeat),
Of...aw-ful...pain (repeat),
Coughed up the shirts (repeat),
And flagged the train! (repeat).

the song is timed by daddy to wrap up just as we arrive on the camp property. the kids get dropped off, we drive home, and miss 'em and send them care packages.

then, one week later, we drive back to pick 'em up and hear the crazy camp stories that we used to tell our own parents. and we remember that camp is ineffable. we remember getting frustrated with our own parents' line of questioning following camp. so we don't pry too much, making sure to leave camp a sacred mystery. i am already predicting that kate, who shares my tendency for waxing nostalgic, will weep much of the ride home because of the painfully beautiful experience and the inevitable departure. it is a thin space, to be sure.

but this place, part of the HEB Foundation, is more than just a youth camp.

many of you are aware of the related adult, ecumenical retreat center there on the same property, overlooking the river, a couple of hours' drive from san antonio. heck, this summer alone (!) you can catch the following at laity lodge's adult retreats: lauren winner, j.i. packer, marva dawn, gordon macdonald,  david dark and sarah masen, michael card, gordon atkinson, ashley cleveland, charlie peacock, and cynthia clawson. whew; that's just a partial list. now, a friend of ours, john, has started a family camp there at laity lodge as well. this is in addition to everything i've already mentioned, plus free foundation camps for groups during the year.

in a few weeks, it'll be time to pull the kids' camp trunks out of the barn and start filling them with flashlights, rain ponchos, and travel-sized toothpaste. there will be health forms to get signed and more gasoline money spent than we'd rather.

and somewhere out there tonight, there's probably a college grad student googling for capture-the-flag, just making sure she's got the rules straight in her head. and somewhere out there tonight, there's probably a school nurse biding her time until she can spend nine weeks with "camp" instead of "school" in her title. and somewhere out there tonight, there's probably a young, relatively thin and tan college kid, making sure he's got picks and backup strings and capos packed tight in that hard-shell guitar case.

let the summer begin

rats [de la terre et des cieux]

I just lost a 40-minute long post, thanks to Firefox and OS X hangs. Rats.

In its place, I'll leave you with one of my faves, Fauré's Cantique. I've been playing phrases from this Matins canticle on my nylon stringed guitar the last couple of days while multi-tasking (including re-installing OS X).

Verbe égal au Très-Haut,
notre unique espérance,
jour éternel de la terre et des cieux,
de la paisible nuit nous rompons le silence;
Divin Sauveur, jette sur nous les yeux;
répands sur nous le feu de ta grâce puissante
que tout l'enfer fuie au son de ta voix.
Dissipe le sommeil d'une âme languissante
qui la conduit à l'oubli de tes lois!
O Christ sois favorable à ce peuple fidèle
pour te bénir maintenant rassemblé;
reçois les chants qu'il offre
à ta gloire immortelle,
et de tes dons qu'il retourne comblé.


(Post)Lentenblog 2008 :: Labyrinth 18

It is [almost] finished!

This morning, Gordon and Jeanene finished up the last arc of the labyrinth (save a gap five stones in length, which they left undone for me to finish up on Wednesday night... a nicely symbolic number considering the giant undertaking).

Labryses

All that's left is (see drawing above) creating curvilinear endcaps on the labryses (switchbacks) and putting in the luminations (petals), and then I'm moving on to create some guided prayer sheets (hopefully a set for adults and another set for early readers) to have on hand in some kind of wooden mailbox or something there at the start of the labyrinth.

So I'm also thinkin' about that.

(Post)Lentenblog 2008 :: Labyrinth 17

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scorpion and two views of the flint scraping tool i found

(Post)Lentenblog 2008 :: Labyrinth 16 [slide show]

It's not quite complete, the labyrinth.
But that didn't keep Kate's Sunday school class from checking it out.
This made my day.

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I posted a Flickr slide show here.

as we get older

w e d n e s d a y,  11:50 pm

tonight my co-worker
is saying goodbye
to his dying grandmother

tonight two of our friends
severed fledgling ties,
and went their own ways;

tonight i had a talk with a
seventy-nine year old man
in an otherwise empty church;

tonight i spent two hours
with cows and a barking dog
and ants and a rocky path

tonight my eyes and ears
saw and heard beauty on film
as ryan and holly and daley played;

today i met with a man with
thrice my athletic ability:
a paralympic star

tonight i prayed for a woman
who might have cancer;
we've never met

today i drank italian soda
with cherry syrup
at lunchtime

tonight i fielded questions
from a friend with
computer problems

tonight i answered five
questions while kissing
jordan good-night

tonight we showered
together
and talked

hey amy,

as we get older
before our eyesight fails us
let us make a pact
to glance upon each other's faces
from time to time
and to invite the memory
to sear

and to remember love
and to prefer one another
and to remember how fragile
it all really is.


..... t h u r s d a y,  12:04 am

Labyrinth tonight. Come help me move rocks.

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(Post)Lentenblog 2008 :: Labyrinth 15

So I've been out to the labyrinth site twice since I wrote about it last. Once on April 20, for about an hour, and once again on Friday, April 25, for two-and-a-half hours

Bucketrock_2 This last home stretch is the loneliest part. I even put in a plea for volunteer labor Sunday at church; this was supposed to be a group project, a community undertaking, and I feel guilty for not being better at mobilizing and inspiring people to come out and co-labor.

Only a quarter of the 11-ring, 360-degree concentric-circle course, maybe 80 degrees, still needs filling in. Now that Jean Gomez's rock pile is depleted, I've strayed further and further up the property line looking for fertile outcroppings.

And the fault line that had always been quietly growing in the center of the bottom of the fishy-smelling plastic bucket has now become a hole, so I'm going to need to bring a new bucket up there next time.

It's interesting the amount of self-negotiating going on when I'm looking for rocks. For a similar amount of effort, I can either walk further on foot and get great rocks, knowing I'll have to lug them back in the bucket, or I can stay closer and work harder, kneeling down to glean the nearby area for usable rocks. I usually choose the former, but after about an hour of these trips, the whole thing seems futile, since I've maybe made a 10 to 12 degree arc's worth of progress and my eyes are stinging with the same sweat that has soaked my shirt through. Then there's the scorpions and unavoidable prickly pear needles that occasionally get lodged under the skin.

Entranceleftright Once a 20- or 30-pound load has been hauled and dumped, there's the extra interior dialog about whether I should break my pace and kneel down (where it's easier for sweat to blur my vision) to position the new rocks or stay moving (where I might catch a breeze) and head back along the fenceline, having to avoid the cactii.

I don't want this to sound miserable. It's also a very spiritual time. Prayer happens. Remembering happens. Perspective happens. Breathing definitely happens.

But I always get impatient at about this point in any project I'm working on. I should have expected it.

this ain't no terabithia

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today i went with some of the netzer co-op monastics to visit some of their homeless friends at a campsite just east of austin and to help tackle some of the piles of garbage just up the hill from their tents. if you're interested, ask me in person, and i'll tell you about the experience. i've posted a photo gallery if you want a glimpse.

after engaging comes reflection, and i've been struck with how difficult it is to not be at least a little colonialist about spending time around our homeless friends. tim and his crew are really thinking deeply, theologically, about this. about relational time-spent. about our tendency to want to always bring something. or buy something or fix things. it's good to wrestle with those questions. and at the same time to be willing to share with anyone who has need.

the kingdom of heaven is like the [actual] fig tree that was planted, watered, and encircled with small stones today.

may it produce fruit.

Time Lapse and Topo Maps


topography from Huba Gancsos on Vimeo. HT to Kent Kingery

t.y.p.o.r.g.a.n.i.s.m.

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click me to go and make your own at typorganism

more on the trinity consultation

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a slideshowing of the folks
who converged in connecticut.
that's eliacín rosario-cruz,
from mustard seed associates
[photos by susan richardson]

nature conservancy guest house, davis mountains, last fall

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Pilcrow & Capitulum, Hoefler & Frere-Jones

Up until today, I assumed the pilcrow
(paragraph mark) was a backwards P.

I love learning new things.

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(Post)Lentenblog 2008 :: Labyrinth 14

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labyrinth site as of 5:55pm 041608, shot from the west

the hour growing late,
pregnant
with this project, with possibilities,
i lifted the front edge of my
tee-shirt to form a chalky cloth sling

i piled in hands full of
fist-sized limestone
three, nine, thirty-eight,
and i labored to stand,
grabbing my back,
looking and feeling
like a last-trimester mama -
and i laughed out loud.
this father of four births,
four umbilical incisions,
four afterbirths,
and one miscarriage,
waddling over to this
birthing site,
pacing in artistic anticipation,
wondering and worrying
about this strange,
forthcoming delivery

so many strong women
in my life,
many of them mothers,
and some of them
wing-waiting

i figured they'd all
laugh out loud
(perhaps my twin-bearing
mom the loudest)
to see me wrestle and
wrangle and huff

i came around
to where i'd left off

i couldn't gracefully
set my quarry upon the earth
so i squatted
and, valsalva,
let the stones

fall

a little lower than the angels

had the earth tonight been water
the concentric rippled labyrinth
might have serv'd witness enough

to the father son and holy ghost.

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labyrinth site as of 8:20pm 041608, shot from the east

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labyrinth, texas style

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i couldn't help myself: i started forming the switchbacks.

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